When you are in the darkest place of your life..
maybe faced with losing your means of income to support and feed your family
losing your home, your warm safe place to keep all of your belongings..
losing someone you love to depression, alcoholism, drug addiction…illness
losing your health, your will to live…
in the face of losing it all you begin to look at the world in a very different light..
you feel removed from the rest of the world
as if you are standing on the other side of a thick glass, watching what used to be your normal
None of it makes sense anymore..
This game we are all playing..
You look at others who seem to have everything..
A place to sleep
A kitchen to hold their food
A closet to hold their clothes
A car to drive
A healthy body
Someone to hold them at night and kiss them in the morning
You remember how that used to feel..
to have things to attach too
things that gave you a sense of safety..
it was false safety..mind made
To just be normal..
You wonder if anything will ever feel safe and normal again..
Even when things that would have normally excited you begin to happen again..
there is a numbness..
a part of you that is still dead from the experience of being on the deepest bottom of life’s well..
If you read this and say.. wow…how depressing… then yes..you are right..
Living it is even more depressing and frightening that judging it from the outside..
You can read this and turn from it.. ignore it.. think about something better…
I would encourage you to do that..
However if you read this and feel comfort..
like someone understands..
like you are not alone in the deepest bottom of life’s well
please feel the comfort of being understood
of not being alone in the dark
of knowing that others walk through this darkness with you…
knowing that there is still life in you someplace
to know you are a survivor
there is a strength about you now that some may never have and never know
money can’t buy it
money doesn’t own this one
its earned by walking through the scary darkness and still being here
that strength.. that courage.. that resolve.. is creating a brave heart
full of love
full of kindness
full of compassion
Have you been asking for spiritual maturity..
to connect to God.. to the Great Spirit..
to evolve..to heal..
to walk your path.. to live your purpose?
What have you been asking for?
that request is being answered…
you are not dying
your mind is submitting..
your heart is leading
you are not forgotten
you are not forsaken
you are in training
your soul asked for something.. and it is being given
When life offers you resistance after resistance after resistance… you have been accepted
into the most intense training experience your soul can imagine..
your heart is rising up
battle of mind verses spirit
Embrace your training..Get strong
If you know these feelings of being in the dark…
you are being given a gift that is not of this world
feel proud to have been heard, to have been accepted
Flex your spiritual muscles at the world
most don’t have the courage to even ask for what you have asked for..
much less walk through the darkness to receive it
you will be able to exist in a world without attachment
fear of loss will hold no power over you
you survived loss.. you had to grow muscles there to manage the resistance
the fight the mind put up over the not having the thing it thought it needed
to survive, to feel safe. to feel ok
a life lead by spirit can only happen with a submissive mind
the more wilful the mind is.. the more it will need to be denied what it thinks it must have
many of our minds are so strong..so wilful
we have to be stripped to bare bones before we can receive what we have ask for
to live a heart lead life
yes, heart.. lead me
I won’t tell you the light is about to break through now
I won’t make predictions
Only spirit knows your course…
the amount of time it will take your mind to surrender its will to your spirit
the amount of time you need in the dark to come out the other side with the strength…
the empowerment you asked for..
although I will tell you.. if you felt even the slightest glimpse of hope..
from seeing what is happening to you.. and why
you have just enough light now to take one step
keep remembering the truth.. the reason for all of this
will be a lamp unto your feet
and a light unto your path…
rise up great heart
this is your life
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Angie is a writer and creator of the YOU2 MASTERCLASS SERIES, regular columnist at Maria Shriver Sunday Paper, and contributor to TODAY SHOW One Small Thing. She travels and teaches empowerment at health and wellness retreats around the world.