When you are in the darkest place of your life..
maybe faced with losing your means of income to support and feed your family
losing your home, your warm safe place to keep all of your belongings..
losing someone you love to depression, alcoholism, drug addiction…illness
losing your health, your will to live…
in the face of losing it all you begin to look at the world in a very different light..
you feel removed from the rest of the world
as if you are standing on the other side of a thick glass, watching what used to be your normal
None of it makes sense anymore..
This game we are all playing..
You look at others who seem to have everything..
A place to sleep
A kitchen to hold their food
A closet to hold their clothes
A car to drive
A healthy body
Someone to hold them at night and kiss them in the morning
You remember how that used to feel..
to have things to attach too
things that gave you a sense of safety..
it was false safety..mind made
To just be normal..
You wonder if anything will ever feel safe and normal again..
Even when things that would have normally excited you begin to happen again..
there is a numbness..
a part of you that is still dead from the experience of being on the deepest bottom of life’s well..
If you read this and say.. wow…how depressing… then yes..you are right..
Living it is even more depressing and frightening that judging it from the outside..
You can read this and turn from it.. ignore it.. think about something better…
I would encourage you to do that..
However if you read this and feel comfort..
like someone understands..
like you are not alone in the deepest bottom of life’s well
please feel the comfort of being understood
of not being alone in the dark
of knowing that others walk through this darkness with you…
knowing that there is still life in you someplace
to know you are a survivor
there is a strength about you now that some may never have and never know
money can’t buy it
money doesn’t own this one
its earned by walking through the scary darkness and still being here
that strength.. that courage.. that resolve.. is creating a brave heart
full of love
full of kindness
full of compassion
Have you been asking for spiritual maturity..
to connect to God.. to the Great Spirit..
to evolve..to heal..
to walk your path.. to live your purpose?
What have you been asking for?
that request is being answered…
you are not dying
your mind is submitting..
your heart is leading
you are not forgotten
you are not forsaken
you are in training
your soul asked for something.. and it is being given
When life offers you resistance after resistance after resistance… you have been accepted
into the most intense training experience your soul can imagine..
your heart is rising up
battle of mind verses spirit
Embrace your training..Get strong
If you know these feelings of being in the dark…
you are being given a gift that is not of this world
feel proud to have been heard, to have been accepted
Flex your spiritual muscles at the world
most don’t have the courage to even ask for what you have asked for..
much less walk through the darkness to receive it
you will be able to exist in a world without attachment
fear of loss will hold no power over you
you survived loss.. you had to grow muscles there to manage the resistance
the fight the mind put up over the not having the thing it thought it needed
to survive, to feel safe. to feel ok
a life lead by spirit can only happen with a submissive mind
the more wilful the mind is.. the more it will need to be denied what it thinks it must have
many of our minds are so strong..so wilful
we have to be stripped to bare bones before we can receive what we have ask for
to live a heart lead life
yes, heart.. lead me
I won’t tell you the light is about to break through now
I won’t make predictions
Only spirit knows your course…
the amount of time it will take your mind to surrender its will to your spirit
the amount of time you need in the dark to come out the other side with the strength…
the empowerment you asked for..
although I will tell you.. if you felt even the slightest glimpse of hope..
from seeing what is happening to you.. and why
you have just enough light now to take one step
keep remembering the truth.. the reason for all of this
will be a lamp unto your feet
and a light unto your path…
rise up great heart
this is your life
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LETTER OF RELEASE
Today my masterclass students learned the power of release. We are learning that empowerment comes from stepping away from fear and in alignment with love. If you would like to experience empowerment, regain control over your emotional stability, heal your inner most relationship, and find your way home to your heart.. Join us either by email or in our next healing US2 30 DAY MASTERCLASS.
by Angie Johnsey
My mind has a “mind” of it’s own. I can’t seem to control it. I don’t know how to stop the negative thoughts and negative self talk. I know I am supposed to be positive and loving with myself and the people in my life. I speak my positive affirmations. I repeat my mantras. I am a smart, capable, person! Why can’t I do this?!
I’ve read all the books, taken all of the courses, so why can’t I do it? I will be doing it, doing it, doing it, and then some circumstance in my life arises and I can no longer do it!
I suddenly find myself right back in the same thoughts and behaviours and speaking unkind things to myself and to others and then feeling guilty for my thoughts and actions.
Start with perspective.
You are having a mental reaction.
That is all that is happening.
Your mind has perceived something that felt threatening to it in some way and it reacted. When it reacts, there is no controlling it in that moment. It’s like a wild horse. You actually can’t control it. It needs to have space and time to do what it needs to do to release the energy the fear or the threat produced.
Do’s and Don’ts
When your mind is having a reaction:
Once the energy has released, subsided, and calmed, realise there is nothing to forgive. The reaction your mind had was a natural reaction to fear or threat. Your mind had this reaction for a reason.
It’s time to heal.
Mental reactions are a gift to us in that they show us our deepest fears. They show us what we need to release and heal in order to grow and evolve and step into alignment with our greatness.
The more we heal, the more threats or fears we release, the less mental reactions we have. We become stronger, more emotionally stable, more unstoppable and unshakeable.
We are not easily spooked, distracted, threatened, or thrown off our course by the actions and behaviours of those around us.
We keep moving ahead with strength and confidence.
We stop doubting who we are and what we are here to do and we go do that no matter what anyone else says or thinks.
We find our power, our empowerment, our path.
There is nothing within you that you can or need to control. There are only things within you that you need to release and heal.
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Angie is a writer and creator of the YOU2 MASTERCLASS SERIES, regular columnist at Maria Shriver Sunday Paper, and contributor to TODAY SHOW One Small Thing. She travels and teaches empowerment at health and wellness retreats around the world.